. . .first blog in a longtime where i will leave no graphic image or photo since all i wanna say is. . .MAN IT IS FUCKING GODDAMN FUCKING HOT in l.a. right now. . .all of fucking southern california is roasting away. . .and i always hate this shit. . .no air conditioner and goddamn it i better buy one fucking soon. . .got all the fans going and of course being. . .umm, in my birthday suit helps (sorry TMI i know). . .so i shaved my head today. . .cooler and it is thining on the top anyways so maybe this will help or whatever. . .work this past week has been so grueling now that july is over and time to catchup. . .but overall life is all right. . .sure there is stress here and there but i chose this fucking stressful job anyways which is why currently i get paid more than my boss since the board of directors seem to be refusing to grant his salary increase and the 2 year retro he wants. . .ha!. . .good fucking luck since i used to sit on that board of directors, i know he is fighting an uphill battle. . .poor thing but shit at least i am helping the situation by working my ass off. . .after fucking 31 years they finally hit a million this last fiscal year and this current fiscal year we have doubled the budget and have already raised more than 25% of it already. . .okay nuff rambling for me for now as the heat gets to me and fatigue is fast approaching. . .laters folks. . .hope everyone has a great sunday. . .xoxoxo. . .

. . .nother hunk blog. . .

major hunk blog. . .'nuff said. . .have a great week everyone!!  xoxoxo. . .

 . .hey can anybody help me?. . .in adding the seamonkey bit now in the column on the left and moving the flooble chat box to the same location. . .i inadvertently erased the html for the smiley things. . .now i can't find any other xanga that has the link to that site that you get the smiley script html from. . .please advise. . .mahalos. . .hope everyone is having a fabulous weekend. . .xoxoxo. . .

. . .of late i feel like my site is turning into one big homo-blog but probly cause i need to go get LAID which IS a DISTINCT POSSIBILITY coming soon what with the potentially deadly combination of you-know-who-out-of-town but you-know-who-coming-in-to-town. . .lol. . .something to do with my twisted-mind-fuck. . .anyways, have a great weekend everyone. . .enjoy the summer sun and the shirtless mens. . .xoxoxo. . .

. . .cute dudehunk notwithstanding. . .i am in a bad fucking mood from work yesterday and MEDIOCRE FUCKING PEOPLE!!!. . .WHY DO PEOPLE HAVE JOBS THEY HATE?. . .MAN, I HOPE AND PRAY TO THE LORD HIGH GOD ABOVE THAT I NEVER REACH SUCH A LOW FUCKING SELF-ESTEEM THAT I HAVE TO KEEP A FUCKING JOB JUST TO SURVIVE!!!. . .PEOPLE AND LET ME BE VERY FRANK HERE - WOMEN, YES FUCKING THE FEMALE GENDER DRIVES ME NUTS FUCKING OFF THE WALL SOMETIMES ESPECIALLY WHEN I HAVE TO WORK WITH THEM!!!. . .not all of them mind you just some of them. . .MAYBE CAUSE MY FUCKING PLUMBING IS SO DIFFERENT BUT JESUS CHRIST THIS PARTICULAR FUCKING STUPID ASS UGLY ASS PATHETIC FUCKING WOMAN HAS ABOUT JUST FUCKING HIT MY LAST FUCKING NERVE ON THIS. . .I HAVE TO SHARE A FUCKING OFFICE WITH HER AND SHE IS DRIVING ME ABSOLUTELY FUCKING BATTY. . .AND SHE HAS THE FUCKING NERVE TO THINK THAT THERE IS ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY NOTHING WRONG WITH HER AND THAT THE WHOLE WORLD IS AGAINST HER. . .COULD SHE EVER FUCKING CONSIDER THAT EVERYTHING BAD THAT HAPPENS TO HER IS HER OWN FUCKING FAULT?. . .STOP BLAMING THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD CAUSE YOUR CAR BROKE DOWN, YOUR SISTER CAN'T STAND YOU, YOUR FIANCE DIED. . .OKAY OKAY OKAY. . ENOUGH TRAGIC ALREADY. . .SAD SAD SAD. . .YES EVERYONE PITY YOU AND CRY FOR FUCKING YOU. . .BUT ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. . .YOU SHOULD FUCKING JUST GET OVER IT. . .GET ON WITH YOUR FUCKING PATHETIC LIFE. .. MOVE THE FUCK ON. . .AND STOP BEING A RUDE ASS FUCKING CUNT ASS FUCKING STUPID UNPROFESSIONAL SUBSTANDARD INCOMPETENT BITCH.  . .IT IS YOUR FUCKING JOB CUNT. . .DO YOUR FUCKING JOB OR FUCKING QUIT. . .LEAVE PLEASE. . .WE ARE ALL FUCKING PRAYING FOR YOU TO FUCKING QUIT AND GET OUT. . .WE COULD SO USE ANOTHER MORE FUCKING COMPETENT MANAGER IN YOUR FUCKING PLACE. . .HOW SO FUCKING IRONIC THAT YOU ARE SUPPOSSED TO BE THE HUMAN RESOURCES AND ADMINISTRATION PERSON AND YOU ARE SUCH A SAD FUCKING EXAMPLE OF IT. . .HOW THE HELL ARE YOU SUPPOSSED TO PROVIDE FUCKING SUPPORT TO EMPLOYEES WHEN YOU SO FUCKING DESPERATELY NEED IT ALL FOR YOURSELF YOU STUPID FUCKING CUNT ASS FUCKING STUPID BITCH. . .AND YOU CERTAINLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO ADMINISTER ANYTHING. . .YOU ARE SO FUCKING STUPID. . .PEOPLE TRY TO HELP YOU AND ALL YOU DO IS FUCKING IGNORE THEM OR GET FUCKING DEFENSIVE. . .YOU ARE SO FUCKING PATHETIC YOU STUPID FUCKING UGLY ASS COW. .. HOW DARE YOU FUCKING TOUCH MY ASSISTANT'S COMPUTER WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN FUCKING KNOW WHAT YOU ARE FUCKING DOING. . .WHY DON'T YOU FUCKING JUST DO WHAT YOU ALWAYS FUCKING DO. . .CALL THE FUCKING STUPIDEST ASS COMPUTER CONSULTANTS ON THE FUCKING PLANET AND WASTE FUCKING $10K IN FEES TO FUCK UP ALL OUR COMPUTERS EVEN MORE YOU STUPID FUCKING CUNTASS STUPID FUCKING BITCH. . .FIRST WITHOUT HIM EVEN ASKING YOU TO DO SO. .THEN YOU GO AND FUCK IT UP. .. AND YOU DON'T EVEN FUCKING LEAVE A NOTE ON HIS COMPUTER TO LET HIM KNOW AND WE COME BACK FROM A FUCKING MEETING ONLY TO HAVE TO FUCKING DISCOVER THAT YOU FUCKED IT ALL UP YOU STUPID FUCKING BITCH. . .THEN YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE THE COURTESY TO ADMIT TO IT BECAUSE YOU ARE SO FUCKING PATHETIC. . .PATHETIC PATHETIC PATHETIC. .. THEN YOU FUCKING GIVE US ATTITUDE LIKE WE DID SOMETHING WRONG WHEN YOU ARE THE FUCKING STUPID ASS THAT CAUSED IT ALL IN TEH FIRST FUCKING PLACE YOU STUPID FUCKING CUNT. .. AT THIS POINT, JUMP OFF A FUCKING CLIFF FOR ALL I CARE. . .YOU ARE SO NOT DOING ANYONE ELSE ANY GOOD. . .FUCK OFF AND DIE BITCH CUNT STUPID PATHETIC ASS FUCKING BITCH. .. DO US ALL A FAVOR. . .FUCK OFF!!!. . .JUST DO YOUR FUCKING JOB BITCH. . DO YOUR FUCKING JOB. . .DO YOUR FUCKING JOB!!!. . .'nuff said. . .my moon is in virgo i think but sometimes i think it definitely might be in scorpio. . .have a great day everyone. . .. . .xoxoxo. . .

. . .okay finally doing a blog from work. . .shhhhhhhhh. . .and been dying to put a couple of these images up. . .so here ya go. . .

. . .just love this guy from everwood. . .mostly an asshole on the show but eyes that bear such sweetness. .

. . .just fucking love this pic. . .god speaks!. . .

. . and for my filipino people out there. . .here is the logo from the $100k special event fundraiser i produced last april at the renaissance hollywood hotel. . .

. . .from May 19 to July 26. . .really a speck in time especially when one considers geology. . .but it seems an enternity ago that i began this strange, new cyber-therapy called the "xanga weblog". . .a scant 60 days ago. . .wow. . .essentially i must say this beats the weekly visit to the neuroticass mft i was seeing last month for sure. . .and damn costs a lot less too!. . .and it sure is way different than the three previous "real" written journals i have kept over the years. . .from the jedi journal i started in sequoia national park in the summer of 1983. . .to the day in the hobbit journal i kept in yosemite in the summer, fall, and winter of '85. . .to the cloth bound "i'm going to be a roman catholic priest with the sacred heart fathers and brothers on the cheyenne river indian reservation in south dakota" trip from my first cycle in the city of angels in 1986. . .to the growing event filled schedules since my "triumphant return" to this fair city from 1989 to present. . .recording life's happenings and related thoughts and feelings have always been an interesting and ultimately beneficial process for my own peace of mind perhaps. . .

it has been a really rough but exciting month. . .from the july 4th anticipation and holiday celebration to my jaunt to great britan to 3 days in ventura county and the car smash to playing major catchup at work. . .it has been utterly exhausting. . .so yesterday i felt like i just had to crash bigtime. . .let my whole staff (of 2) go home early and i slept from 7pm to 4am and now i sit blogging away cause i am having difficulty going back to bed. . .and looking at the weekend which still has work later today, a filipino veterans foundation event tonite. . .mass tomorrow morning and a gay asian pacific support network meeting tomorrow afternoon. . .then another fun-filled week @ work and the looming "i gotta pay my one grand deductible and get my car back on thursday" blues. . .

so ends the july of 2003. . .with much anticipation for the rest of fiscal year 2004 (july 1 to june 30). . .a fall fundraiser hoovers in the distance with the spring dinner already in mind for may '04, the grants matrix never stops evolving especially with the new compassion capital fund opportunity, speaking of which the capital improvement project still needs be tied up with the last $50k and of course the newly-added, official "communications" title has kicked-in with the revival of the balitaan newsletter imminent, esipa still needing major website updating, the firstever annual report having begun production planning, and an advertising campaign initiated. . .

. . .and still hanging are the personal aspects of one's heart (the crush that dare not speaks its name!) and the spirit (with the re-entrance of one fr. art and a flash to the past!). . .all will be resolved in due time. . .forging ahead to the future filled with hope, faith, love, and positivity!!!. . .xoxoxo. . .

(kudos to the babe with the board - ahhh, i remember my younger years. . .thanks again to aznboi69 for the pic. . .)

. . .back to work and work is work. . .besides that, driving around my enterprise rented fordly focus and worrying bout getting my cypress green pearl 96 hond civic ex back in good shape. . .starting to plan for my FABULOUS return to island paradise with my darling cuz jette from october 2-9. . .any of you gents going to honolulu, let me knows. . .meanwhile, enjoy the photos from www.hulas.com. . .used to be my hangout under the banyan tree but now they overlook. . .the zoo. . .ohwell, how times have changed!. . .lol. . .ohyes, also wanted to mention the new flooble chatbox thingy on the right of my fucked up layout - i need to learn me some picture placing techniques!. . .anywho - would love to see some juicy funny haha drama chatchat. . .have a great week all!!!. . .xoxoxo. . .

. . .hey everyone. . .great weekend. . .trying to get in some r&r since i had a rough week what with the car accident, management retreat, england, etc. . . .so friday was late at work day. . .saturday went into the officejust to finish up the year-end meo to the boss. . .then went to get cuz cindy and greg and off we went to the hoolaulea annual hawaiin festival held in torrance. . .a little disappointing since the food was not so fantabluous but the shopping was airght. . .then it was off to the l.a. toful festial and that was a blast listening to hiroshima performing live and the tofu was good eatings. . .and today we went off to east west players to see "everything you wanted to knw about asian men". . .and surprisingly. . it was GREAT. ..so good weekend but now comes the week to continue catching up at work and dealing with the anxiously anticipated car repair expenses insurance notwithstanding. . .have a great week all!. . .xoxoxo.  . .