June 24, 2003

• . . .okay so really great kinda good and long telephone conversation with mikey bruce last night. . finally decided to email SOMEBODY about this darn weblog thingy. . well dale, michael, and kevin got the word sofar. . .so nice to catchup from afar. . .from hollywood to kona and back – the magic of fiberoptics. . of course this only happened after i took a gander at mike’s weblog and shock of shocks on the girlfriend or ex or whatver’s father committing suicide. . .too overwhelming for my stoned numbness. . .but anyways, after reading mike’s torrid chronology it occurs to me especially after his reaction to reading thru this site – perhaps i oughta include more personal remarks regarding LOVE and related-relationships stuff. . .everyone seems to inquire about that part of my life after some moments of re-acquaintedness. . .

  
  

  all right – so the truth of the matter is that although i never did become a bonafide roman catholic clergy – its almost as if god has damned me at least of late to this celibate existence regardless. . .one might think that its because i haven’t really tried to seek a partner and that one might be right. . .so the ultimate truth is that after having my heart broken in a million pieces more than once or twice or thrice or about 10-20 times, i have chosen to treat sex as a casual non-connected thing and love as a more universal application. . .yes, we have learned that there are indeed many kinds of love – familial, agape, porneo (?). . .so i find myself relishing in the freedom of being celibate and actively avoiding real intimate relations beyond physical and relishing my independence (as i always have) and being a slut. . .so don’t get me wrong – i am certainly not CHASTE simply CELIBATE. . .or at least that is what i am claiming today. .

  
  

  okay back to the real therapy now. . .

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